Our landlord emailed yesterday to let us know she wanted to put the house on the market in October. She offered us a discount for having the house listed while we lived here and a bonus if the house sold.
Wow. I am so unsure what to do! I can't stand the thought of having people coming through my house, having to have it ready to show~for how long? 6 months? a year? that is a stressful thought. I have trouble keeping my house clean and I think it would be more frustrating.
So~ I actually had been looking at houses for rent before she even told us this. I know I don't want to live here. Too many things have broken and Tony has had to fix them and I just haven't liked being here. The house was filthy when we moved in and I still feel as if I haven't gotten it totally clean.
So, I have been praying and trying to find peace. To be content with where I was at. I thought we had to be here for at least another year. But this changes things. Is it a answer to my prayers? I know I will have to move eventually...it is just up to me if it is going to be sooner rather than later.
So here I am stressing. Wondering what to do? Look for a new place? Move right away(which is what I want to do)?
I want to make the right decision for my kids. Be where our family is meant to be. I can't deny that I prayed like crazy before we moved here and I knew this was where we were supposed to be. I want my kids to have good friends that hold the same beliefs we do. I think in a day and age with so much temptation and peer pressure having good friends that hold the same values as you do is key.
So..the dilemma rages on.. to move or not?
Am I where I need to be at to hear the answers? Is this an answer to my prayers or just wishful thinking? Maybe the indecision is the answer!I guess I will keep praying and trying to make the right choice for our family. It's strange when my kids are involved I stress so much about doing what is best for them. I just need to relax. I have the time.