Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Forgive Me While I Whine! Again...

I think I'm a bit over the edge today. Kind of on the hysterical side. With my medication I am queasy 24/7 but only puke maybe 4-6 times a day. But I ran out of medication and am puking ALL day long and into the night. If I move I puke.
Went to the Dr today and puked 4 times while there. I had had it! I am over it and I have a long long way to go. Ughh.
So I did what I do best and broke down sobbing. nice! Tony kept telling me to pull it together. Not gonna happen.
So the Dr told me insurance is hesitant to pay for the meds. That they want me doing other stuff first before giving me the medicine that works. You know cause after 6 other pregnancies...I guess I don't know what I am talking about. Maybe happy thoughts and crackers will work if I will it too.
I don't want to go months and months without being able to function. I told the DR I can't live like this. She asked if I felt like harming myself. umm no, but maybe harming my husband!
So, my only option is going next week and if I lost some weight they might be able to justify to the insurance to pay. And if I agree to the IVs they can try to get me on the pump.Sheesh whatever it takes just give me my damn drugs ya know? So...I am not going to fight the puking this week. If I feel sick I am not even going to make the effort to get food in. And hopefully by next week I can get some drugs so I can sit up, maybe get out of bed and if lucky, shower. Such high ambitions.
Oh...and after talking with insurance tonight they decided they would pay for 12 pills. But I would have a copay. My portion?? $465. right. totally do-able.
now excuse me while I go puke and cry a little!


RhondaLue said...

Oh. My. Gosh.

That is NUTS, beyond RIDICULOUS!!! Maybe you should give it a day or two and then go to ER sobbing and puking. They'll hook you up, won't they? I'm fired up FOR You right now. Stupid Drs and insurance companies..they're going to drive people INSANE while they go through the "process" and twiddle their thumbs as you're suffering. Dude, I'm MAD.

kristifritzel said...

I personally think insurances are run by satan. so what, you are supposed to pay for insurance and NOT expect any services in return? what a joke!

Shelli said...

Hang in there, sweetie! I love you and hate to see the torture you're going through. I think you are entitled to a nine month pity party with as much crying as you want. I would send chocolate, but I know you'd just puke it up anyway. You're in our prayers!!!

Crazymamaof6 said...

HOLY CRAP! that sucks! i'm so sorry!

UGH! well think of it this way. easy way to loose 20 lbs.

functioning is overrated. lay in bed with a bowl. 24/7


that super sucks!

Ginger said...

So sorry it is so bad. Go to the emergency room every day if you have to. They will give you something just to get rid of you. Stay in bed if you have to. Love you and hope it gets better. I think you are alergic to pregnancy.

sherry said...

My blood is boiling for you! I am coming over tomorrow to pick up the girls and bring you some lunch. I am searching my house frantically for zofran. And feeling guilty that I took your stash while I was pregnant! If you hit the emergency room and required to get IV fluids, they could cover it faster. And Costco sells zofran cheapest. I had to pay full price a couple of times and it is less tha 1/2 price there. If you don't have a membership I can get it for you. Let me know!

Cheffie-Mom said...

I'm so sorry. I hope you are feeling better and can get some rest.

I really like your new blog layout.

Amanda said...

how do you do fancy headers?? I love how yours and my moms looks, but i have no clue how to do it.

Amber said...

Oh my gosh, I am so so so so sorry. Dealing with insurance is a nightmare and your condition even worse. Hugs to you!

goingsome said...

AH, the beauty of insurance, NOT!!!!! I can't stand when the insurance company gets in the way of what is best for you. GEZZ. It is just the insurance company way of trying to dictate your health care. Keep pushing through and get what you need.

Let me know if you need ANYTHING!!!! Sorry I don't have a contact on the black market for prescriptions. UGH!!! :)